
By Dennis Adams (G-E, 2007), Pastor St. Peter's & Faith UMC, Evansville, Indiana
Reflection for Holy Saturday 2010
A week before Christmas in 2007, after a four-year struggle with cancer, my 27-year-old son Matthew died. He was at home with his wife and family around him. And if such a thing is possible, he died with great dignity. Matthew had left instructions that the music at his funeral was to be "church music" from the hymnal, the songs he loved to sing on Sunday mornings when he was a teenager. We opened the service with "How Great Thou Art." When we began to sing the third verse - "And when I think that God, his Son not sparing, sent him to die, I scarce can take it in," - I was overwhelmed by my own pain and for the first time began to comprehend God's pain on that dark Saturday in Jerusalem.
Matthew was baptized as an infant and was confirmed in the faith as a teenager. As an adult, however, he had little time for church. But his faith and hope endured. When, near the end of his life, his sister challenged him, "How can you believe in a God who is doing this to you?" he said, "I just do."
From time to time on Sunday mornings, the pastor asks us to, "Remember your baptism and be thankful." Reading Romans 6:3-10, I remember Matthew's baptism and I am thankful to the very core of my being, for in his baptism, Matthew was united with Christ in death and I know he will be united with Christ in his resurrection. We ended Matthew's funeral with "Hymn of Promise."
In our end is our beginning; in our time, infinity;
In our doubt there is believing; in our life, eternity.
In our death, a resurrection; at the last a victory,
Unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see.